on being responsible

Life is demanding, hence we love to be led, told what to do, and be absolved of responsibility.  One thing less to worry about seems often like a really good idea. Yet, when you turn over responsibility, you give up control and agency, and the opportunity to formulate your own approach or direction. 

When you order takeout for dinner, you give up control over the ingredients in your food and what nourishes your body for the convenience of not having to cook.  When you go to the doctor and come unprepared to discuss your own research and preferred approach, you give up control over what goes into your body or the logistics of your healing process.  When you do something because “somebody said so” or someone “told you to,” you relinquish the opportunity to create your very own experience, instead living someone else’s reality.  

Of course, nothing is ever black and white.  Without followers we would all need to be leaders and that doesn’t make sense in a universe of polarities.  Some of us just prefer to be followers, and sometimes we decide when to be led and when to lead.  Nevertheless,  it’s good to do research and make an informed decision in order to have an opinion that’s grown on your own turf instead of someone else’s.   Being responsible is empowering, if involved and more demanding.  You have the opportunity to choose many times each day.

 

 

trust and surrender

Since March 2020 I haven’t felt particularly productive with all this anxiety around the virus, partisan politics and all the social suffering, the accelerating effects of climate change and our collective hesitance to act decisively.  That anxious energy is all around and difficult to escape.  Hence, I haven’t yet had the motivation to write that “other cookbook” that’s been germinating in my mind.  Just like a pregnancy, the cicada cycle, or a sour dough can’t be rushed, an incubation period, personal or societal, takes its own time.  Unfolding takes time. Sometimes it goes fast, sometimes not so much.  

Patience and trust are difficult for us because they require surrender, and surrender runs counter the ego’s need to manipulate and feel in control.  In addition, patience is a challenge because technology has trained us to expect speedy results and resolutions.  Hence, patience runs counter to our culture.  My ego thinks it knows better than my soul and that creates internal struggle and doubt.  “I’m supposed to be writing this book, the idea is already there!”  “But I’m not inspired, the motivation is just not there.”  “Time is money, what am I waiting for?”  “I know, I know.”

If we can only trust ours and the universe’s wisdom in the process of unfolding, resist the urge to try to speed things up, and instead watch what wants to happen, it would promote a greater sense of peace with what currently is.  Things are less predictable than we want them to be.  Trying to force things to happen when they “don’t want to happen yet” is not productive.  This, I need to lean into my own advice to surrender, trust, and be patient.  

What is your experience with watching a process unfold with patience?

 

polarity and the human condition

Judging and evaluating, comparing and taking sides define the human condition.  We exist in a world of opposites.  Remove the concept of darkness, as for example in the Dark Ages, the concept of the Age of Enlightenment is impossible to define.  Take sickness away from our earthly existence and you cannot desire to be healthy since you would never have been sick or had ever experienced sickness in others.  Health would be an incomprehensible, unreal and abstract concept.   A heavy cast iron skillet only conveys its weight to us in comparison to a bag of feathers, not on its own.  

Yet, when we take sides, preferring one over the other, judging one as “good” and the other as “bad,” wanting only what’s “right” and not what’s “wrong,” we only accept half of the picture.  Reality is both, must have both, does not exist otherwise on this earth in the material realm.

Hence equanimity and contentment arise out of accepting that abundance and poverty, hunger and satiatedness, generousness and stinginess must coexist, and only together are One.  One aspect cannot be wished or manipulated away in favor of more of the other.  That’s banging your head against the wall of how the universe functions. Besides, everyone has a different definition of “good” and “bad” and we are now entering sticky philosophical terrain.  The murderer obviously did the only possible thing in that crucial moment, and it was the “right” thing at the time.

Spiritual development begins with the acceptance that what we encounter and experience just “is,” and it is “good” because there is no “bad” or “wrong.”  They both cannot exist without the other, and by necessity are part of the package we signed up for when we came upon this earth.

as abundant as nature

We have been gifted so many plants from friends over the years, by splitting root  (lily of the valley, hosta, hydrangea) or rizome clumps (tiger lilies, irises), separating shoots (lilacs, raspberries) and transplanting runners (strawberries, strawberry begonia), as well as accepting seeds (hollyhocks) and whole seed heads (echinacea).  Many of these plants have grown big enough that we can now share and provide a never ending supply of joy to others.  And we know how quickly animals can multiply, the smaller the faster.  One mouse pair could theoretically produce about 5000 mice in a year.

Nature is just so amazingly abundant that I’m not quite sure how we humans ever came up with this idea of lack and not enough which so permeates our culture (“not enough time,” “not enough money,” “only 2 left,” or “get it while it lasts”).  Perhaps we are so disassociated from nature that we no longer understand its principals. Nature gives so freely, it doesn’t hold on.  It sends its seeds so liberally into the wind by the gazillions.  Abandoned farmland reforests all by itself over the years.  A garden rewilds and overgrows so fast if you don’t constantly pull the weeds and mow the lawn.

The difference between nature and our human behavior is our lack of generosity.  We hold on, tight and tighter.  We stash our money away and get rewarded for it with interest.  During the pandemic we horded toilet paper and meat and created actual shortage.  No wonder then that we live in a culture of stinginess, lack, and miserliness.  Instead of living and modeling abundance, we live and model lack.  Perhaps things would be different if we got rewarded for giving our stuff and money away

To experience abundance, we need to emulate nature’s generosity of giving.  Be like nature.  The more generous you are, the more generous the world around you becomes.

 

let's make a little room

We just learned that zoo baby births increased by 25% over the past pandemic year because the lack of human visitors put the animals more at ease.  

Good things happen when we humans get out of the way.  When our impact lessens everything else – the air, the water, the animals, the environment in general – recuperates and flourishes, as we saw so immediately last April.

We need to shift our thinking from I to We and consider the bigger picture, the benefit of the many versus the personal benefit to just one person, then we all profit.  Let’s make a little room for the rest of Nature so we can all thrive!